I’m just feeling really drained this week. I put a LOT of work into my formal observation with my AP and yet I still don’t feel like it was good enough. I’m redoing one failed project for grad school, AND I have my grad school advisor observing me on Friday. Plus we know the superintendent is coming soon (this has been coming literally for months). And I haven’t even started my big data project for school yet. Ugh.
I’m probably overreacting, and probably being too hard on myself, but damn, I don’t just want to survive, I want to do well. Everyone expects me to be a rock star, and so far I’ve delivered, but it’s like being on an undefeated sports team. It’s a huge pressure to maintain. When you’ve got nowhere to go but down, it can be just as scary as the opposite.
Add to all this the fact that I’m not sure how I’m going to make it to my next paycheck, and my stress level is absurdly high right now.
I really need to go back to recounting what I’m grateful for, because right now it all hurts.
Silver Tides 