“When you have more to lose, making decisions gets harder.”
It may sound elementary now, but I have to thank the lovely K for finally making me feel like less of an idiot for being as indecisive as I am. When you have little to nothing to lose by making a somewhat risky decision, well… why not? But when a wrong move can have much more dire consequences, it’s really hard to make that leap.
And I’ve had enough times in my life where the risks usually lose and “slow and steady wins the race” proves out more often than not. The teaching job has been the biggest leap of faith I’ve made in a very long time. Not because I didn’t think I’d be good at it, but because I had to give up a decent paying job for the CHANCE of being hired as a teacher. But I was so miserable in the other job that taking the leap became worth it. Yes, I had a salary to lose, but I had my sanity to gain.
So far, it’s paid off well for me. Maybe not financially (at least, not yet), but in the long run this will be best for me. Yes, it’s hard work, but anything worth doing usually is. It’s a lot of work away from work, but I had that with the last job and didn’t get anything for it. And I was on call for all kinds of stupidity. Now I can manage my own workload… which I hope and pray will become easier to do as the years go on and I get better at this and have a bigger array of tools and tricks at my disposal.
Oh, and vacations. Lord, I needed those… 😉
But there are other areas of life where I’m a little more inclined to take a leap.
Silver Tides 